When it started...
As a child and teenager, I was very carefree. I went with the flow of things, worried about little and loved the social aspect of everything. Slowly at the end of high school and definitely once I started college, I began to notice my heart rate increasing, sweat forming on my neck and difficulty breathing anytime an adverse or trying situation was presented to me. These situations ranged from studying for a final to being 2 minutes late to class to forgetting my favorite pen at home to seeing someone I was too afraid to approach. To the average person who doesn't suffer from anxiety, these situations seem like nothing to stress over, but to the young lady with untreated anxiety and no way to cope, these were impossible, mountain-sized problems that I had no way of overcoming. I began (without realizing it) pulling my hair out and picking my eyelashes during my anxiety episodes. These were the first external signs of anxiety I showed. As the episodes became longer and more frequent, it was noticed by people around me. This only made matters worse, so I started isolating.
Then the doctors...
When I was in my early 20s, I finally broke down and visited a psychiatrist. I feared leaving my home or participating in social activities that were out of my control. At my appointment, I was diagnosed with anxiety and prescribed a very common, light dosage anti-anxiety medication to help treat these recurring, severe anxiety attacks. I was told it would also help with the hair pulling and eyelash picking. At the time, I had hoped this was a temporary solution and that I would eventually learn to cope with life without the aid of pharmaceuticals. Over time, the opposite happened. My anxiety worsened, my dosage doubled and I was seeking other ways to cope with seemingly impossible situations. I searched for relief in people, narcotics, and alcohol among other things. All would provide me with temporary relief, but after a few weeks my symptoms would all return and I'd find myself alone in a panic on the floor over the smallest difficulty.
I was ultimately on an anti-anxiety medication for nearly six years. I want to stop and focus on this fact: at 25 years old, I was under the impression that I would be on medication to treat my symptoms for the rest of my life. This still doesn't sit well with me. How is it that in a society as medically advanced as the United States in the 21st Century, people are still prescribed medications in their 20s that they will be on indefinitely (aka- for the rest of their lives)? I didn't like the sound of "changing my brain chemistry" or "altering the way my body reacts to things" because all that came from taking the medication was this awful numbness. There were no elated feelings of joy, there were no low feelings of sadness. There was just nothing. This next statement is absolutely my opinion and I stand behind it. I believe I was created by a superior being who gave me the ability to feel. On what spectrum do those feelings exist? Well that's different for everyone, and there is no right or wrong way to feel. It's a choice for the individual to make whether his or her feelings no longer suit the quality of life he or she desires. So thus, I was in a tough spot. Continue on the medicine that made me feel numb? Or get off of it and risk experiencing severe, crippling anxiety again?
Finally, things got better.
After a lot of meditation, self-discovery and learning about CBD, my doctor and I had a conversation. She and I decided it might be worth a shot to taper me off of the medication and slowly replace my psych meds with a daily dose of CBD tincture. We made a plan that we were both comfortable with, and I was to follow it strictly. Within 10 days, I was able to completely taper off of my anxiety medication (under my doctor's supervision). During the taper, I would replace doses of my medication with Mountain Pure's 1000mg CBD tincture. Now I can proudly say I am completely off all pharmaceuticals and use one full dropper of 1000mg CBD tincture in the mornings. I am able to experience emotions healthily without any adverse side effects. I am able to cry again for the first time in years. I cope with my life and am able to maintain relationships. I can feel again. I am so grateful for an open-minded psychiatrist who was willing to work with me, as well as friends and family who stood by and supported me through my journey. CBD has improved my quality of life in ways I never could have imagined. I would absolutely suggest this to anyone struggling with anxiety and depression seeking an all-natural, complete healing solution.
Thank you for reading.
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