My journey with CBD oil started almost a year ago when I finally decided it was time to take a more holistic approach to treating my PTSD, chronic migraines, anxiety, depression, PMDD, arthritis and other chronic pain. The focus of this blog is the miraculous effects CBD has had on my PTSD and anxiety.
To give you a little back story, I joined the Army at seventeen when I went overseas for almost five and a half years, but I didn’t know that’s what was in store for me at the time. I lived in South Korea for two years where I woke up at 6:00am for a 6-mile run hungover, and we traveled a lot and saw most Asian countries while stationed there.
After I completed that tour I moved to Germany where I volunteered to go on a tour in Baghdad, Iraq. Upon arriving in what felt like the hottest place on earth, I immediately went into fight or flight mode, where I have yet to come out of fully.
I was in a supply company so we were on the road a lot and of course being super eager, I volunteered for a lot missions as well. I loved the rush I felt, but I was secretly terrified inside. Yet you would never know that, because I felt like I had to be the one to always hold it together. My peers would look to me for strength and guidance to get through another day and they will never know how grateful I am for them getting me through so many terrifying nights.
I have seen suffering in a way I couldn’t fathom before, I have heard screams that could haunt the devil himself and I have seen the absolute worst in the human condition and that has forever impacted me in an indescribable way. The sounds of mortars landing on base was your alarm clock. An energy drink and a muffin was your breakfast, lunch and dinner on those long nights of week long missions inside literally the most dangerous city on Earth. Surrounded by so many beautiful souls and children who begged for pens to simply go to school. but what was also leering in the shadows were people who wanted to kill me and I knew it. I had several close calls of death when I barely missed a bullet to the face when it grazed my helmet and missed roadside bombs numerous times and even in the midst of thinking every single day will be your last,being 24 and writing a will and writing goodbye letters to your family I didn’t give up because I had a job to do and I had peers that looked to me for strength, so I had no room for showing my weakness of fear.
Only those who have been in my boots will ever understand the fear that amongst this large crowd someone wants to hurt me and Loud noises from a balloon or how an unexpected firecracker can send you into a crying spell, flashbacks of imagining a gunmen storming in your classroom, can’t keep a partner because they don’t understand why you have to keep a crowbar by your bed and check the door 5 times before you can lay down, road-rage because someone pulled in front of you and it reminded you of that car that wouldn’t stop that was barrowing towards you and watched the tank next to you take it out, few people could understand having so much anxiety that you literally feel out-of-body and all you want to do is run out the room, Sometimes you do and then you lay awake at night praying the thoughts stop and hoping you get some sleep and don’t wake up in a full on panic attack from yet another nightmare only to wake up and start this process over. Every. Single. Day.
That was almost ten years ago and yet it still remains fresh and vivid in my mind. Within that time, I’ve been prescribed over twenty-five medications for various mental and physical ailments and Just to be clear I’m in no way shape or form making medical claims or telling anyone what to do, this is MY experience.
I was tired of all the different side effects and health risks that came with the different medicines, so a year ago I found that relief I was searching for. The symptoms aren’t completely gone but I feel the elephant lifted off my chest and I have a quality of life I never thought I would ever achieve and enjoy again. My mood is better, my anxiety is manageable and my overall wellness has drastically improved and I feel like I can breathe again. I started this company with my best friend because I have seen first-hand what true suffering looks like and I never want anyone to feel like they are out of options, I want to bring hope to the hopeless with this life-changing remedy.
Thanks for reading,
Owner, Mountain Pure LLC