Being a female new business owner, in an industry still riddled with stigma, at almost 40 years old, has been one of the most beautiful, uncomfortable, joyful, scary, courageous and impulsive things that I have ever done in my entire life. It’s a story that I need to tell. It’s a story that’s really just beginning.
And this - is my preface.
It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog. It’s been a while since I’ve had the time for my mind to be relaxed enough to guide me to writing. But as the end of the year has shifted who I am and my priorities, the timing seemed important. I believe I am called to write and I believe I have a purpose in carrying such an important message - and so, I should and will indeed, do so.
You see, today I sit here writing and I am a business owner. Our company has a place in this community. We have a trusted name and a quality product. We have a loyal tribe. We have intelligent business partners and we have a network that is willing and able to guide and lead when necessary. We have flexibility in our life. We have new places and new people and new joys. We are able to travel our path of purpose. I believe EVERY SINGLE PERSON can do the same thing. EVERYONE. And in 2019 I will live a life that gives my neighbor the confidence to live hers!!
But like every story and every experience, there is a “this is what happened before all of that”.
I call this my preface because it’s my very beginning. The beginning of - me. If you would have asked me who I was a few years ago, I’m not sure what I would have said. But I am positive it would have been something I thought you wanted to hear, I would have said it with tons of confidence, and I was doing my best to act in that exact way.
I grew up middle, upper class family, parents are still married, I went to private schools, I went straight to college from high school because that is “what you did”, and I graduated with a degree in general studies (with 4 minors and then a certification as a paralegal), because whether you knew what you wanted to do or not .. you got a degree. I went into the workforce looking for the stable, safe, long term 8 to 5, because it wasn’t about what you were called to do, but about what you needed to do to be secure.
I hate that word today .. the word secure … it’s a silly, silly word with terrible expectations placed on it.
So I graduate from college and spiral down a very ugly path of opiate addiction for almost 10 years. That tragedy turned miracle is a story for another day, but it’s important to know that I started on the path of opiate addiction with a prescription from a doctor following a car accident. I mixed that addiction with one reliant on narcotic amphetamines as well, and also prescribed by a doctor. I relied heavily on western medicine, I had no sense of true health and wellness. I didn’t even know that meditation existed nor that food could heal an illness.
Because I spent most of my adult life under the haze of opiate addiction, for a while after I got sober, I associated happiness with sobriety. I associated doing the right thing with being sober. I associated being of service to others struggling with addiction as my purpose. It was all I knew and it was really all I understood for a while, if I’m being vulnerably authentic here. But looking back, that was never going to be ‘enough’ forever, it wasn’t what the universe intended for me … it was not supposed to be the single, driving force of my life. My husband likes to say that I was on a righteous path, but not the right path.
So in February of 2017, when I married my dreamer, it was as if I had finally given the universe ‘permission’ to shift, because when you combine your world with a determined dreamer …. I assure you, there is a shift!
The 8 to 5 was just getting us by, the American Dream reality was living paycheck to paycheck, I didn’t love what I was doing because it was just monotonous admin work all day that didn’t really test me nor allow me to critically think, I could hear myself telling people what they wanted to hear, following “rules” or “suggestions”, because that’s the “right” thing, and really .. just struggling .. struggling to really WANT to do anything.
One night I was lying in bed thinking that I wanted to dream, I wanted to imagine beautiful ideas, I wanted the playful daydreams to dance across my mind, I wanted to have neat visions and hope …. And yet, I didn’t. Not a single one. I couldn’t even “dream” if I wanted to. Eeeeww!!! How awful does that sound!!??
So I just started showing up, because I knew action is the only thing that will really elicit change. And therein lies my mantra – just show up, no matter how you feel, just show up! And in 2017, I showed up and I learned about myself, and the people around me, and the people who loved me, and the people who claimed to love me and the people I didn’t even know … and I kept showing up when my husband asked me if I wanted to start a company sharing with the south the miracle that changed family’s life … the cannabis plant.
I just said yes … and I kept saying yes. And I’m still saying yes!
I said yes all the way through the funny looks, the loss of friends, the surrounding stigma and the worry, the long nights, and the hard decisions, I fulfilled the commitment and kept showing up. Because as I’ve said a few times already, the beauty behind the venture is something I am positive is feeding my soul!!!
If you think there is a stigma surrounding the cannabis industry in general, consider the stigma associated with it in recovery circles. Oh. The goal of Mountain Pure is not to be a silent, mini hobby that makes us some extra money, we intend on it supporting our families and the families of others, as we grow and are able to provide jobs and dreams … and you can’t do that quietly.
Our mission is to change the quality of life by educating the world on the beautiful benefits of hemp derived CBD … and you can’t do that quietly either. So from the jump I loudly spoke the truth of what CBD has done for my family and countless others … and in showing up … I realized that I had “friends’ that would not be willing to show up for me. And I’ve continued on my journey without them. And the fear of losing people, isn’t so scary after all. It’s given me a new freedom I have never in life felt.
I said yes throughout all of 2018. I worked my butt off. I dug deep into myself and I began to speak my truth, but more importantly I acted on MY truth. It quit mattering to me what everyone else said, and it only mattered to me that I was authentic, because authenticity is truth to myself. For the first time in my life I applied 100% of myself and my abilities and I did things because I felt in my soul they were right! The year was so hard. I ended the year flat exhausted. And yet - it was gorgeous.
I learned how to dream again in 2018.
I became a business woman 2018. I am currently co-running one of the most rapidly growing companies in our city and I have no doubt the love and success that our future holds.
I learned that I am called to share with the masses. I am good at carrying a message and I am excellent at gathering the knowledge necessary to do so.
I learned that I am able to juggle and manage and organize not only as a mom and the guide to my family, but to my business and to our customers and everything that falls underneath that. There are so many moving parts every day and it’s no doubt to me it’s the universe that has allowed me to create the flow.
I found my purpose. My ONE THING. I have been able to focus my love and light on teachign people that they can control their own health, that they do not have to rely on big pharma, that they can heal their families and that nature has provided what our bodies need. purpose and I have found a great deal of success in doing that. I never thought so, but I am eager and thrilled to be able to homeschool my little. It’s already opened up doors for both of us that I never imaged!
I also learned that this life is so MUCH. There is alot of work and joy and beauty and people, but there is also never a day that looks like the one before, there is always a list that will never be completed and there is always - people. I have to meditate, I have to take care of myself, I have to be the one in charge of my own self care. I have to take care of me. That is not a privilege that I get sometimes, it’s a responsiblity I have to miyself and to those who count on me and who love me.
I am heading into 2019 knowing that this is Chapter 1 of a pretty rockin story. This is just the beginning of multiple companies, multiple dreams, raising my child in a way I never imagined was possible, breaking stigmas and empowering the world around me. Empowering the world around me. Talk about a cool purpose.
Why are more and more people turning to alternative medicine? I ask myself that question as I leave the office of an endocrinologist whom I have been waiting to see for over two months. This is the same doctor’s office who told me when I called a month after sending a referral, that the doctor had not even seen it yet, much less evaluated my chart. I shouldn’t have been surprised by how frustrated and disappointed I became after leaving the office. This has been my experience my entire adult life when it comes to doctors and western/modern medicine and what we call a health care system.
When I was eighteen, I went to a doctor because I was having a lot of anxiety related to graduating from a small school and going to huge state university where I would know no one. I have been shy my whole life, but it had gotten to a point where I couldn’t make myself go up to a stranger at a registration table and tell them my name. It was crippling and I didn’t know what else I could do. The doctor told me I was depressed and needed to be on medicine for the rest of my life, just like if I was a diabetic who needed insulin to live. I believed him! I went on to take that medication for thirteen years, even though I would ask if it was a good idea to try and stop taking it. Every time I said I felt good and I didn’t think I needed to be on depression medicine, they would tell me that means that it is working and you don’t need to stop.
These are two very common questions that are asked over and over again. These are also two very simple to answer questions, even though, there is tons of misinformation being spread. It is important to understand the truth about something that you’re considering using as a part of your wellness routine, so we decided that rounding off this educational series here was important.
Have you heard about the endocannabinoid system (ECS) and how it plays a pivotal role in the function of the human body? There have been all kinds of stories covered by multiple media outlets and medical professionals discussing the ECS. All this talk about it is great and all, but what is the ECS?
The endocannabinoid system also referred to as the ECS, is a part of every mammal on the planet. It wasn't found until 1992, so many medical professionals never learned about it. Raphael Mechoulam discovered the ECS along with NIMH researchers Dr. Lumir Hanus and William Devane.
Since 1992 we've learned a lot about the endocannabinoid system. It plays an essential role in helping to regulate our body. Hunger, sleepiness, depression, happiness, pain, and many other functions are affected by the endocannabinoid system. Located throughout your body are receptors called CB1 and CB2 receptors that are a pivotal part of the endocannabinoid system.
CBD is an incredible compound that is allowing many people to find relief from a wide range of different medical conditions and ailments. One of the reasons that this cannabinoid can help so many people in various ways is due to the diversity of products that it can be included in. From lotions, creams, lip balms, beauty products, hygiene products, drinks, foods and capsules to suppositories, oils, vape juices, and more, the list seems almost endless. Here are five simple and easy ways that you can utilize CBD.
CBD can also be consumed internally in many different ways. Some of the most popular are CBD infused edibles, CBD capsules, and CBD tinctures. CBD tinctures such as the Mountain Pure CBD Tincture come in a variety of different strengths and can be taken sublingually but putting the tincture under your tongue, or adding it to your favorite food or drink for ingestion. Tinctures made utilizing cannabis have been widely used in cultures around the globe for centuries.
As CBD has grown in popularity, so has the number of products in which contain this cannabinoid. CBD topicals, however, seem to be one of the favorites of many as they offer some substantial benefits not provided by other CBD products or treatment methods.
What is a CBD Topical
A CBD topical is any product that contains CBD that is designed and intended to be used topically and applied to the skin. Some of the everyday topical products that you most likely have in your home are lotions, salves, heat patches, and medicated ointments. CBD topicals come in a wide variety of different forms including lotions, creams, balms, oils, and patches.
How Do CBD Topicals Work
CBD topicals work by introducing cannabinoids to the body through the CB1 and CB2 receptors that are a part of the Endocannabinoid System and located throughout the skin.
CBD – What is this Miraculous Substance So Many Are Using?
Cannabidiol, also known as CBD has been making mainstream news in the last few years. But what is CBD? This is a question that many people have begun asking themselves after hearing some of the miraculous success stories of others who have incorporated CBD into their treatments for a plethora of different conditions.
The Science of CBD
Cannabidiol as it’s scientifically known, is a compound also known as a cannabinoid, that’s found in cannabis and hemp plants. CBD is one of several cannabinoids found in these plants that offer potential medical benefits. CBD unlike other cannabinoids such as THC provides no intoxicating effects. It’s this fact that intrigues many people to learn more about CBD. This is because they’re curious about the potential benefits that cannabis has to offer but aren’t fond of the psychoactive effects that full spectrum marijuana/cannabis produces.
I am forever grateful for finding Mountain Pure CBD. I am a very active person, an active mom and a massage therapist. A few years ago my low back/SI Joint area hurt so bad I could barely walk. There were times my husband would have to carry me from room to room. I went from being at the gym every single day, teaching cycling classes, riding my bike outdoors, and lifting like a beast to a dead stop.
My life stopped because the pain was unbearable.
I rarely struggle to put things in words once I've been called to say them.
This has been a bit of a difference experience for me.
I've taken to typing and gotten through a single sentence several times over the past 2 weeks.
Suddenly last week, sitting in line for an oil change.... it all came to me. What I needed to tell you.
My story ...
Not my version of someone else's story, not my story of my little man's journey or the experiences of those around me, not my story of the easy things, but MY STORY ...
Because I can hear your silent condemnation and it's not okay ... and someone needed to say it - it's not okay.
I remember at the the age of 17, I had my first panic attack. I had no idea what was happening...
And honestly I don't remember it happening again until I was about 1 yr and a half sober (some years later).
And I mean, it happened every single day.